For the last… almost 9 months — since I met Boo — I kept on checking my gaydar messages periodically. So has he. We both met people there that we were not planning to be involved romantically or sexually with, but didn’t want to lose contact either. That was the official line.

In the last two months alone I received about three or four proposals of, well, sexual nature. That included a guy who wanted to see my tattoos up close and informed that my boyfriend wouldn’t approve suggested that boyfriend joins us (without even knowing what Boo looks like or how old he is, which I suppose I should take as a very dubious complement). Another kept on checking every 3-4 weeks as to whether I’m available by now, which also felt sort of complimentary.

It’s just that I don’t need this kind of self validation. Same as I don’t need to go to a gay pub and end up snogging someone in the darkest corner, or catching a STD. I am aware of my attractiveness, I have a great sex life and it’s all good and well that 99% gay relationships in this town involve threesomes, visits sex clubs and all other forms of openness, but personally I’m just not that interested. I see no reason why I would. Perhaps in a year or two, when the inevitable drop in hormon level comes, I will, but really, right now I don’t.

I deleted my gaydar account over a week ago. Boo found out a few days ago and did the same. It’s not that he doesn’t trust me or I don’t trust him, we just… don’t need those accounts anymore. And let’s face it, if there is anyone I met more than 9 months ago and didn’t trust enough to give my email to, I don’t think I need that person in my life.